I :heart you: . I'm going to try heroin in 5 months from now. and only do 1 fix a month, I wrote 3 poems on this, and well if I become a junkie which I doubt, I'll go to rehab and clean up. I can fess up to my actions much like Kurt Cobain tried to. I'm a man, and no one asked me to try Heroin but me, so just know no one influenced me. I'm not going to let the drug Heroin control me like other junkies have let it do so just pray for me, and if I go to rehab so be it. I'd rather try Heroin, then Acid, etc. Every drug has bad effects, but i'm prepared to face them and go to rehab if I do become a junkie. but I doubt I will, because I used to smoke pot, and I kicked that habit like THAT snaps 1-2-3! I will pay for my rehab drug treatment ok? Just care for me, and know that I will buy my own needs that are sterilyzed an dnot sharerwith other users. I know about AIDS etc so I will be careful.

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Question everything, including yourself and your self

Hey you!

Sorry it has taken me so long to reply, I have been a busy puppy moving into a new flat all of my little own and sorting stuffs out with that, only just recently got the Interwebs set up here. Still, it do be most wonderful indeed to hear from you again! It sounds like you've been going through as much as of a world of change as I have too though still I do hopes things be good and well with you. Anyways, I fears that I has to dash off now, but now I has things relatively sorted here there should hopefully be much more opportunity for sharing. My luffs and thoughts and hopes and care and bestest of wishes to you and hopes to hear from you again soon.

Peter.

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Thanks for the comment. I've been alright, working and living on my own with a friend of mine. Just started getting back into my art. Started smoking and talking to the birds, but it's been a while since being sober so going to try that out again. So how has it been?

Hi there beauitful Jen my friend
I am so happy you're with someone who makes you feel the way you should feel inside and out as a lady. Friends forever
I have missed you over these days, weeks, months
friends forever like I said!
I shall be able to comment more to you and others on my deviantart list in the summer
*Summer*
I will be slightly busy til May sometime with my Graphic Design classes. in my 2nd semester but I will comment on everyone's stuff more once summer hits (the friend kind)

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Life means everything when alive, and nothing when you die

I would rather be hated for what I said, instead of loved for what I never meant (to all the haters)

Question everything, including yourself and your self

Hi Jen! I have been away with my band Drown out Dark. college for Graphic Design, and my job. so whenever I can we'll be in touch and I"ll leave comments from the on your page, da inbox, and so on. I am always thinking of you. I miss you too my friend!
bless you and everyone you know in this world! I am getting all A grades in my classes so no worries. Next week I take drum lessons for percussion as well. I still play guitar but I want to learn a 2 times as challenging instrument maybe even for life. and drums and percussion are not easy to learn but I'm up to the challenge. some of my lady friends are helping me find a gf. I"m sick of looking and not finding the one for me. so they're helping me. sometimes I wish you could help me with this finding my girl because you have plenty of female friends I"d like to friend thru you. Call it a friend or love connection. all I know is I'm getting sick of being lonely and single. so many of my workers make fun of me. I feel like everyone else has it better then me because I"m the only guy at work without a gf. I"ve been single for 9 years. I know my princess charming is out there but I still have yet to see her. well I hope all is well with you as you said. i'll submit new deviations, collab, art, poetry, prose when I can. I"m always thinking of you Jen so never ever ever ever feel uned as a deviantart artist and friend ok?
Sweet dreams and I'll catch ya sometime on here
Thank you for letting me come into your world and life as a friend. I'm sure in time we'll be better friends. I'm just trying to balence college, friends, band and so on. Thank you for your time Jen

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Life means everything when alive, and nothing when you die

I would rather be hated for what I said, instead of loved for what I never meant (to all the haters)

Question everything, including yourself and your self

Im doing good I guess. The girl i fell in love with Vanessa ended up not feeling the same way about me since we never saw eachother so much. I guess thats just the way things go. Sucks but where still good friends so Im glad I atleast have that. But yea Im doing good, got my GED and a good job..working on saving money and trying to get my liscene so I can do something with my life. But things are good and thats all I need.

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Thanks for your suggesting to not wait. I dont think I would ever just pick up and leave vanessa, mainly because we both share the same intrest and shes just pure awsome. I might do something like do classes at the local college here and get the mandotory shit out of the wait. yea she plans on graduating in two years I believe. Not to long I think i can work and do classes here untill things get well. i dunno but u know me, the dreamy type lol but i think me and her will work out supa dupa well. Anywho yeah i did something today that i think kinda pissed my gf off. I wont do it ever again cuz the expierience was horrible but i got high and well. I didnt like it, it was cool and funny and shit but i forgot alot of shit and it got on my nerves cuz i hate forgeting things, especially with a awsome gf now omg i would die but i think she needed me today more then usuall cuz her mom was being lame like usuall and i felt i wasnt there for her and i just felt bad, im sure she knows i was only doing it to see how it is cuz shes kinda did the same before so i dunno but if i did that to u would u forgive me or be pissed for a lil and then just blow it over i dunno. but yea...im kinda worried, cant sleep but anyway ttyl

marcos

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Hee there Jen.
WOW havnt herd from you in forever. Looks like your doing tons better wich is awsome. Sorry to hear about whats happenin wit u and your bf in the journal. kinda odd cuz the day you posted that was like one of the best times ive had with my gf. but hope things turn out better for you in that department.but yeah im doing good. working on my GED. passed everything but math the first time so i need to take that over. whenever i get that i plan on applying at a few art colleges. it might take a while cuz i kinda wanna wait on my gf cuz shes still in h.s. but i wouldnt mind. got a job at a resturant recently and its not bad. im liking it alot. at least im not stuck in some office. so yeah. things are getting better. plan on getting a liscene and car sometime soon but i never know. parents make things go so much slower but oh well, whatever. anyway good hearing from you and i hope things get better.
peace and much love

marcos

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Wish you the best in everything always my friend. It sucks you had viruses on messenger for aim. My version is quick and has no problem. Sometimes they say it's the version you have that affects the computer and such. I'm not mocking you by the way. I too have had viruses once on my computer that took months to get rid of. I will always have aim and yahoo and msn messenger so in case any of you that have these want to talk when I'm available then it's all good. I am glad you found someone again and I hope he doesn't break your heart and such. I know how men can be cruel. I know how women can be cruel too. We always in society try to deal with what we can handle and with what we can't handle we try to accept and ignore and move on and forward. Other then looking death in the face at my first funeral when my grandma died in her sleep I am doing well. I'm glad I went to the funeral out of respect. I was shocked to see her in that thing and such and I cried and wept and such but it felt good to let out how I felt. Cuz had I not cried at all at her death I think it would be safe to say there is something wrong with me. You mourn the ones you love that you've lost. and oh did I mourn. Forever my grandma stays in my heart and memories just like you will too Jen. Never feel that I don't love you as a friend. You can laugh at me if you wish. But I pray for all my friends. I want them to feel safe and know that their friends do care for them. I always care for you and about you my friend. Our friendship is like jewelry. Beautiful and priceless. I won't let anyone destroy the beauty that our friendship as friends has. Bless you sweetly forever and always Jen my friend. Have a lovely week and a ly weekend
if you ever need s you know as a friend I'm here for you. Take care and be safe

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Life means everything when alive, and nothing when you die

I would rather be hated for what I said, instead of loved for what I never meant (to all the haters)

Question everything, including yourself and your self

Hey. Yea this weekend was utterly amazing and just awsome. So much stuff happened and i just cant wait to sleep and take a breather from it all. I plan on hooking up with this girl Vannessa soon. Yea pretty amazing since ive been single for fucking ever. But i have a feeling me and her are going to get far together because pretty much what i want out of a gf. Other then that life has been treating me good and always has. Always a few bumps in the road, like right now im trying to find a job and get my GED soon for college up in atlanta. Working on alot of things so i can get on my own two feet. But other then that life overall has been great. More ups then downs.

Marcos

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